I guess it’s time to update the blog. I have gotten some questions from people and I apologize for not having the energy or the brain cells to respond. It’s just been a whirlwind, really.
So, here’s the thing:
I’m in the process of getting a divorce. Huge change of life situation going on here and it feels a bit like a roller coaster at times. I’ve been separated since November. Since that time, I’ve just been trying to find my way. Some days, I feel like I’m doing really well through all of this. Some days, not so much.
I’m trying to be the best person I can be throughout all of this. This is challenging, to say the least. I feel like I’m doing a pretty good job, though. So far.
I am so proud of my girls for the way they are handling all of the changes. I really couldn’t ask for more. They have been wonderful, really. Is it any wonder that I think these two girls that I gave birth to are the coolest people on the planet?
Throughout this whole process, I have been so grateful for the love and support that has been shown to me by my family and my friends. Unbelievable. It makes me want to cry every time I think about it. I have amazing people in my life. And I am so lucky that I have so many people who are there to lift me up when I am feeling down.
My photography has been a source of healing for me. So has writing. I don’t get as much time as I’d like to do either one. But I’m making the effort.
One of the things that I am struggling with is fear. Fear of this new life. Fear of the unknown. But I keep taking baby steps and reminding myself that it’s ok that I don’t know everything and it’s ok that I don’t have an exact idea of how things are going to be. IT’s OK! For a person who likes control, it’s hard to surrender. I know now that I must surrender to a certain degree. There are only so many things I can control. And I must surrender the rest. No amount of worry will help. I finally grasp this.
Thanks to all of you that have sent me emails, asking if I’m ok and why I stopped writing. I really do appreciate it. I will do my best to jump back on the blogging bandwagon. I can’t make any promises, but I’ll take it one day at a time and see how things go.
Thanks for caring. :)