This blog was originally supposed to be for my kids. Since I have journals for them since I was pregnant for both, I thought maybe this would be a great way to write things in one place and I could later print books for them of my blog and they could both have a copy. With pictures! It sure seemed easier than continuing to write in their journals and writing about the same experience twice.
Then, I realized that it was a great way for me to express myself and I could have some posts that were just for me and that I get to pick and choose what goes in my kids' books. Win, win. Right?
What seems to happen is that our lives are moving so incredibly fast that by the time I have an idea in my head that I really want to blog about, the time to actually sit down and do it escapes me.
So...I remind myself that I have made a commitment to chase zen. Part of that is letting go and accepting what doesn't go my way. I will only stress myself out more if I don't.
I know I will never master the zen thing. And that's ok. But I am certainly better than I used to be. And for a control freak...well, that's pretty damned good.